love
n. 1: A deep, tender, ineffable feeling of affection and solicitude toward a person, such as that arising from kinship, recognition of attractive qualities, or a sense of underlying oneness. 2: A feeling of intense desire and attraction toward a person with whom one is disposed to make a pair; the emotion of sex and romance.

obsession
n 1: an irrational motive for performing trivial or repetitive actions against your will. 2: an unhealthy preoccupation with something or someone.

I feel like I am in a grey zone. Even with the decision that I made, every day is a struggle … not to write, not to call, not to think about it. It amazes me that so little action on his part has sent me to this dark place. I constantly feel the push and pull of my desire for him, my desire to be rid of him and my desire to destroy all others who dare to get close to him. I am walking the very fine line between love and obsession. The idea of him poisons my mind a little more each day. I can feel affection turning toward hatred ever so slowly. These feelings can’t last forever, right? They must end.