Good Advice from Tyler for someone who is also in my boat:
So consider this a slap and a push. I don’t know your friend. He’s just a person. I agree that he’s quite beautiful (of course — you’re not gonna have a crush on an ugly unavailable boy!). But, Babe, he’s a big boy and he’ll live. I’m sorry that your friendship has probably ended — but you know something? For your emotional well-being it probably should. That’s harsh, but it true. You can’t be a fully functioning adult who doesn’t self-medicate with regular doses of 420 to keep your brain silent and your emotions at bay while still in such a relationship. I suspect that you also douse your turmoil with a good splash of vodka regularly too. Well, it certainly works, but the long-term costs of that kind of medication are devestating. So stop it.

It’s good to know that I am not the only dumb gay male out there.