There’s so much on my mind right now that I can’t even begin to put it down here. It’s the usual stuff. Questions about friendships, my actions, love, lack of love, trust … the usual crap that my brain tends towards. Maybe it was the joking way in which we both referred to my being “madly in love” with him the other day. Maybe it was that third-party lunch meeting triggered by the comments of some stupid youngster. Maybe it’s because I lied my ass off to that third-party. God. It was so “high school.” Maybe it’s because it’s a grey and rainy day out there. Maybe it’s just the fact that it’s gonna be another event-less Friday night.