I’m feeling somewhat better. The fabulous Michelle and I are gonna go to Nick & Nate’s for some beer, food and conversation after work. That should pep me up. I have already been pepped up by the super hot photo that Homer posted.

Dang. Looks like the fun cabin weekend getaway with some close friends has imploded due to weather forecasts that are screaming for sleet, ice, freezing or snow … or all of the above at the same time. Whoo. After the stressful week I have had, I was looking forward to getting the heck outta Dodge for a few days. I had already purchased whiskey to sip by the fireside. I guess I’ll just have to sip it on my own with a horror film or two to keep me company.

Yeah. I’m wallowing in self-pity at the moment. I still haven’t been able to come to grips with just why the Evil one is still stuck in my head. It hits me on certain days and, yep, today has turned into one of those days.

I feel stupid for not having moved past this yet.

I feel stupid because I can actually use the word “years” when referring to this situation. Time is supposed to make things better, right?

I also know you all are tired on me harping on it. “Oh, look. That fella from North Carolina is on about that ‘Evil’ guy again. How boring.”

See. It would do you no good to date me. I would become obsessed and stalker-ish with you. That much is clear. And you would no idea it was going on because I would never, ever let on that something was up. You would be totally in the dark.

So, while you go off and find something far more exciting and interesting on the web, I’ll sit here with my Maker’s Mark and some horror films. Viva la weekend.~

I always appreciate being linked. I’m blown away that people actually read this site and wanna link to it. It makes me all smiley. So, check out the list with some newly added blogs.

SEVENTEEN SECONDS (1980) / FAITH (1981) / PORNOGRAPHY (1982)
TRACK DETAILS OF THE NEXT ROUND OF RE-MASTERED RE-RELEASES – OUT IN APRIL…

THE CURE
SEVENTEEN SECONDS
2 CD SET
COMPILED BY ROBERT SMITH

Digitally Remastered from the Original Master Tapes. Features 15 tracks on CD for the very first time. Deluxe package contains a 20 page booklet including sleevenotes and lyrics with rare and previously unseen photographs.

SEVENTEEN SECONDS: THE ORIGINAL ALBUM

01. A REFLECTION
02. PLAY FOR TODAY
03. SECRETS
04. IN YOUR HOUSE
05. THREE
06. THE FINAL SOUND
07. A FOREST
08. M
09. AT NIGHT
10. SEVENTEEN SECONDS

SEVENTEEN SECONDS: RARITIES 1979-1980

01. I’M A CULT HERO (vinyl single by CULT HERO)
02. I DIG YOU (vinyl single by CULT HERO)
03. ANOTHER JOURNEY BY TRAIN (home demo)
04. SECRETS (home demo)
05. SEVENTEEN SECONDS (live)
06. IN YOUR HOUSE (live)
07. THREE (alt studio mix)
08. I DIG YOU (CULT HERO live)
09. I’M A CULT HERO (CULT HERO live)
10. M (live)
11. THE FINAL SOUND (live)
12. A REFLECTION (live)
13. PLAY FOR TODAY (live)
14. AT NIGHT (live)
15. A FOREST (live)

*****

THE CURE
FAITH
2 CD SET
COMPILED BY ROBERT SMITH

Digitally Remastered from the Original Master Tapes. Features 4 previously unreleased songs and 15 tracks on CD for the very first time. Deluxe package contains a 20 page booklet including sleevenotes and lyrics with rare and previously unseen photographs.

FAITH: THE ORIGINAL ALBUM

01. THE HOLY HOUR
02. PRIMARY
03. OTHER VOICES
04. ALL CATS ARE GREY
05. THE FUNERAL PARTY
06. DOUBT
07. THE DROWNING MAN
08. FAITH

09. CARNAGE VISORS

FAITH: RARITIES 1980-1981

01. FAITH (RS home demo)
02. DOUBT (RS home demo)
03. DROWNING (group home demo)
04. THE HOLY HOUR (group home demo)
05. PRIMARY (studio out-take)
06. GOING HOME TIME (studio out-take)
07. THE VIOLIN SONG (studio out-take)
08. A NORMAL STORY (studio out-take)
09. ALL CATS ARE GREY (live)
10. THE FUNERAL PARTY (live)
11. OTHER VOICES (live)
12. THE DROWNING MAN (live)
13. FAITH (live)
14. FOREVER (live)
15. CHARLOTTE SOMETIMES (single)

*****

THE CURE
PORNOGRAPHY
2 CD SET
COMPILED BY ROBERT SMITH

Digitally Remastered from the Original Master Tapes. Features 5 previously unreleased songs and 14 tracks on CD for the very first time. Deluxe package contains a 20 page booklet including sleevenotes with rare and previously unseen photographs.

PORNOGRAPHY: THE ORIGINAL ALBUM

01. ONE HUNDRED YEARS
02. A SHORT TERM EFFECT
03. THE HANGING GARDEN
04. SIAMESE TWINS
05. THE FIGUREHEAD
06. A STRANGE DAY
07. COLD
08. PORNOGRAPHY

PORNOGRAPHY: RARITIES 1981-1982

01. BREAK (group home demo)
02. DEMISE (studio demo)
03. TEMPTATION (studio demo)
04. THE FIGUREHEAD (studio demo)
05. THE HANGING GARDEN (studio demo)
06. ONE HUNDRED YEARS (studio demo)
07. AIRLOCK: THE SOUNDTRACK
08. COLD (live)
09. A STRANGE DAY (live)
10. PORNOGRAPHY (live)
11. ALL MINE (live)
12. A SHORT TERM EFFECT (live)
13. SIAMESE TWINS (live)
14. TEMPTATION TWO (aka lgtb) (RS studio demo)~

Oh, my goodness. The Man has posted the greatest clip ever. It definitely brought a smile to my face. You kick ass, man! I must go camping as soon as possible … though I doubt two leather daddies will bust into my tent in the middle of the night. Plus, I really wouldn’t want them to chainsaw their way in as I spent a lot of money on my lightweight backpacking tent. Anyhoo …~

Yeah. And not the good kind of “humpity” either. Too busy today to be stressed/drepressed. Slowly but surely ticking through the work load. Whoo. If’n you have a love of cock (and I know you do), you can go waste some time here. Trust me. You’ll enjoy it.

… right in the middle of my forehead.

So, apparently everything that’s wrong or has been delayed at work is my fault as well. “You’re the one holding this stuff up. It should have been done weeks ago.” Well, yeah it would if y’all didn’t keep pushing other “time sensitive” stuff my way. Grrr.

How shitty is it of me to not answer the phone when my sister called twice last night? Pretty shitty, in my opinion.

I am still getting bugged about that freelance stuff too. As if I have nothing to do but deal with it. Day job. It’s pays the bills. Remember that.

I hate feeling stressed out ’cause my mind starts to go into overdrive and worry about stuff that isn’t even in the scheme of things … the overall direction of my life, dateless-ness, self esteem, career, friends, past decisions. So, who wants to volunteer for hatchet duty? It won’t take long. I promise.

Grrr. The past few days are the kinda days that make me want to change my name, move to a new city and start fresh. New friends. New job. No family obligations.

My sister and her husband are back into it again already. Friday night consisted on being woken up at 1:00 a.m. to go get her and get her over to my cousins house. Needless to say I was out until 4:00 a.m. dealing with this shit. Next day she has her husband come and get her and she’s back at home. How many times did she call me yesterday? A lot. They were already into it again. Bad thing about this is she won’t listen to any of the advice that I have given her. She hates him and doesn’t want to live with him anymore. I say “divorce/lawyer” to her. No, I can’t do that. It’ll cost money which she doesn’t have. She says she gonna kill him or herself. I say “counseling/meds” to her. Nope. If she sees a counselor they will think she’s crazy and commit her. Jesus. And, where is my father during all this? Who the hell knows. I guess I get to keep handling this one on my own.

I arrive at work this morning to a pissy e-mail from the head of the theatre that I freelance for. They are doing a fundraiser that I have worked up a logo for. The lady that coordinating “has been trying to reach you but not connecting and is starting to lean on me.” Well, hell. She has my fucking phone number. Has she called me? No. “Both of the meetings we have had so far were to discuss printed material, with you being the most important person we wanted there, and not having you there made them sort of a waste of everyones time.” Well, hell. First of all you should have the meeting in the evening … when I have a better chance of making it. I do have a day job, remember? Secondly, if I was the main person you needed there … why the hell didn’t you say that in the first place instead of “make it if you can” or “we would like to have you there.” And why am I just hearing about this eleven days after the last meeting?

Fuck. Times like these … times like these.