Three days (only two more rehearsals) until we open “Sweeney Todd: The Demon Barber of Fleet Street.” I’m ready. Ready to have it out of my hair. Don’t get me wrong. It’s been fun but, due to the complicated nature of the show, it’s been rehearsed for eight weeks. That’s two weeks longer than we normally take for a musical. It’s time. Time to have it over. Yeah. I have hit that state that I always get into when a show is about to open. I always feel like there is more that could have been done. I feel like I didn’t give enough direction. I feel like the show could have been better if someone else had been in charge. I feel that folks will say, “Ah, he directed so that’s why it’s not as good as it could be.” It’s just the way I get. It’ll pass.
It doesn’t help that I am continuing my stalker-esque ways. I really need to drop it. It’s going to net me nothing but further mental instability. I think I continue it so I can have something else to beat myself up about. Grrr.
And I sometimes wonder why I ended up having to be medicated …