I am down in the dumps today. Shocker!

There is a situation that I can’t quit obsessing about and I really do need to stop. The only solution I have come up with is just to walk away totally. But the idea of burning that 25+ year old bridge is quite sad and stressful. I have already become quite homebody-ish over the last year and half and this would pretty much seal the deal on what existing social life I have. If I walk away, I would then be disconnected from one of the things I used to love to do and from a lot of the people I know. Ugh. I hate being an adult and dealing with shit like this. It really sucks how people and their egos ruin things.

The big excitement for the weekend was purchasing and assembling a new office chair (alcohol not included).

During the day yesterday, the NC DOT came through the neighborhood and butchered just about everyone’s lawns. Supposedly this is in aid of keeping standing water out of the road. There has never been an issue with this in front of my house. But that did not stop them from taking 2′-4′ off the front of my lawn with a big scrapper. I do understand the state has a certain amount of right away, but this is ridiculous. I now have a big, ugly, barren swath of dirt in front of my house. A friend says the DOT will come back through and make this look better. I totally have my doubts about this … and I’m really having to fight the urge to reseed this section with grass RIGHT NOW. Grrrrrr.

April is almost done. Thank Christ. I wouldn’t have expected it to be as utterly depressing as it has been. I got more upset about not getting cast in that show than I thought I would. And, I am having the worst time shaking thoughts that I am secondary (or even an afterthought) and that I can’t seem to do anything right. Ugh.

Plus, it doesn’t help that it’s been gloomy and has rained every single day since Sunday. Hopefully the forecasters are right and will will finally get some sun tomorrow. I am soooooo ready for warmer temps and blue sky.

“What else has been going on?” you might ask.

– Had a nice lunch with the Retired Pilot.
– Dr. Phibes and Co. were in town for a quick visit. The beer and food flowed freely.
– Got a request for “more information” from the NC Dept. of Revenue. Yay, audit!
– Managed to only piss one person off this week.
– Won two eBay auctions. (Take away my PayPal account, please!)
– Did some freelance work.

“What is going on this weekend?” you might ask.

– Might go to the Noble Cider tasting at Blue Ridge Beer Hub.
– Mowing the yard.
– Going with Mom and Kat to Bearwaters Brewing to hang out tomorrow night.
– Seeing The Diary of Anne Frank on Sunday (as well as having a nice lunch).
– Hopefully will finished up Season 2 of Jessica Jones.
– And … more freelance work. Shocker!

The boyfriend is gone this weekend, so it will be sometime next week before I will get to see Avengers: Infinity War. (Bites Fingers!)

Hang in there, people. Hopefully the giant asteroid will arrive soon. 😛

Freelance work got me all like …

Thank Christ this week is over. Hopefully the weekend will be pleasant and eradicate my can’t-do-anything-right-I-am-a-total-fucking-doormat mood.

Woke up in a funky mood and it has not improved at all as the day has gone along. I feel like I can’t do or say anything right in regards to the various things that have been weighing on my mind over the last few weeks. Ugh. Tomorrow might need to be one of those “have too much to drink” kind of days.